Lessons of life...

I wrote this on Facebook too, some months ago, when I was still 20... OK, so I've grown up a little since then, but it still makes tons of sense to me...

I've had a lot to think about this semester, more than I though I would at the beginning of it. Overall, it was a way better semester than the ones I've had in my first year at Bard, even though at one point I kind of bumped my head to the ceiling and had to recover from it [metaphor]. But now I am OK. I sometimes wonder whether I am selfish or altruist, mean or good, but after all, we humans have the potential to be all-in-one packs :) I am sometimes alone, but I don't give my best to be in the company of other people [like going to the ISO Formal, tonight]. I just expect them to include me in their activities, which is sort of stupid. I've sort of managed to actually make friends here, managed to be disappointed, managed to be reassured. I've understood that I am not the only weird person out there, and that there are other people like me. Actually, I understood that I am not weird, or rather, not more weird than the average ... Bard student [just kidding, Bard students are weird, and everyone that knows them knows that]. I've always known that life is a series of ups and downs and I've been through a lot, but they never seem to be the same as before. I've learned that there are people whom I can trust, but that everything has a limit and apart from family, little people will stick to you until the end. After all, my friends back in Romania are less than the number of fingers I have on one of my hands. But they are there. And I don't know if they've been there through good and bad or not, but they know most of what there is to know about me, and like me as I am. I've learned.. in the 20 years of my existence, that there are moments from where life can't go worse, so it gets better. I've learned to expect that everything will get better with time. I've learned how to influence the outcome through positive thinking. I've learned... to smile when I'm sad, to enjoy every little moment of my life, I've learned to see the positive aspects in things. I've learned that applying what I learned is sometimes hard. I've learned that I am human and am bound to make mistakes, and that I am not supposed to be ashamed by them. I've learned that I can be childish and ridiculous, even if I hate people that are childish and ridiculous. I've learned that no matter what I expect from the future, the future turns out to be unexpected, but in a positive way. I've learned not to wish for previews, although they might make my current decisions easier. I've learned that I am capable of feelings I didn't know I was capable of, but that feelings are passing and that you don't need to cling to them. I've learned to move on. I've learned that I enjoy learning, that I like classes even if they start at 9 am. I've learned that, even if I am 20, I am not too old to live my life. In fact, I've always known that my life is just starting. I've also learned that you shouldn't open your heart to other people, because you will get hurt. I've also learned that you'll get hurt anyway, even if you don't open your heart. I'm just counting on the fact that people won't have time to read this note :) Or that they won't try to read between the lines. I've learned that life means both winning and losing, and that you can't win them all. I've learned to appreciate the importance of having a bubble around you, a protective bubble, in which you are protected by your parents from all the bad things in the world. I've also learned that the word bubble is used because the bubble will be broken when you grow up. I've learned that home doesn't mean the house you live in, but the place where your dear ones are. I've also learned that there are some places where you'll always want to return. I've learned to dearly await tomorrow but to also fear what tomorrow may bring [I know this sort of contradicts what I said earlier, but I understand myself :) ]. I've learned that people can live together and support and understand each other even after love has passed. But I learned to dread those moments, because you have to get bored and start disliking the other person [of course, in most cases you are right]. I've learned that, although most dreams never come true, some do. And I learned to understand that some dreams still have time to come true. I've learned that you shouldn't think so much about the future, because the future is here before you expect it. But I sort of can't help myself... Oh, and I've also learned that wishes you make at midnight on New Year's night tend to come true! Just be careful what you wish for, cause you might just get it!
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